Mike,
You have been on my mind since you originally posted your distress. One morning while reading Scriptures, I came to Tehillim (Psalm) 143, and I immediately thought of you. I feel a nudge to share it with you. Here's how Psalm 143 reads in "The Scriptures" (ISR):
Hear my prayer, O Yahuweh,
Give ear to my pleadings
In Your trustworthiness.
Answer me in Your righteousness.
2 And do not enter into right-ruling with
Your servant.
For before You no one living is in the
right.
3 For the enemy has pursued my being;
He has crushed my life to the ground;
He has made me dwell in dark places,
Like the dead of old.
4 Therefore my spirit grew faint within
me,
My heart within me is stunned.
5 I remembered the days of old;
I meditated on all Your works;
I ponder on the work of Your hands.
6 I have spread out my hands to You;
My being is like a thirsty land for You.
Selah.
7 Hasten, answer me, O Yahuweh;
My spirit fails! Do not hide Your face
from me.
Lest I be like those going down into
the pit.
8 Let me hear Your kindness in the
morning.
For in You I have put my trust;
Let me know the way in which I
should walk,
For I have lifted up my being to You.
9 Deliver me from my enemies, O Yahuweh;
I take refuge in You.
10 Teach me to do Your good pleasure,
For You are my Elohim.
Let Your good Spirit lead me
In the land of straightness.
11 For the sake of Your Name,
O Yahuweh, revive me!
In Your righteousness,
Bring my being out of distress.
12 And in Your kindness,
Cut off my enemies.
And destroy all the adversaries of my life,
For I am Your servant!
Also, "Put on the complete armour of Elohim, for you to have power to stand against the schemes of the devil." (Ephesians 6:11) Put on Yah's complete armour! See Ephesians 5:13-17.
And - pray for other people. Try not to focus so much on your situation. Talk to the Father. He is the Father who does not desert His children! He will not let go of your hand as you learn to walk in His Way. Remember that! Focus on that! Trust Him! Free fall into His arms!
"The truth is, we are not alone in our battles. However, if we believe we are alone--if we accept the lie that God does not care---our darkened thinking will isolate us from the loving commitment of God." (Francis Frangipane's "Behold How He Loves Us")
You are not going through any thing that has not afflicted every single believer for centuries! Let Yah restore you. You must be heading in the right direction already, or the adversary would not be so interested in you. Verbally, out loud, command the adversary to leave you in the Name of Yahushua Ha Mashiach! Then praise Yah for His loving kindness. And do your utmost to control your fleshly thoughts and tongue. You can do anything through Him who gives you strength. Believe it! I'll be praying for you.
Didn't mean to write a book.
CK
Edited by user Tuesday, January 29, 2008 2:40:27 PM(UTC)
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