Father,
If my wife wrote down everything that she would ever say to me and every feeling that she would have that would display her love for me and wrote down every response to my questions and desires to her, and put it in a book (even with a table of content and index) and then disappeared. I am not exactly sure I would be able to maintain a real relationship with her for any real amount of time. Sure, I would scour the book for as long as I could to remove any ounce of the life I once had from it, but time does remove relationship connections no matter how hard we try to hold on.
Better yet, let's say that someone handed me a book and said, here is your wife, have a relationship with her and love her with all your might. How long do you think that would last?
Even if, she found a way to somehow interact with me behind the scenes in her disappearance by arranging for me to have a parking spot at the mall sometimes, or see a commercial on TV that hits the spot every now and then, or arrange for some pastor to say the exact words I need to hear at some low point of my life, it wouldn’t make much difference in the long run. It would be curious for a while but in the end, a desire for a real relationship would always overrule.
Father you want a relationship with me. So does the world. I so desperately want a relationship with You. But to me a father/son relationship is one were two beings interact with each other. In God’s case, I ask questions, He answers, or at least noticeable points me in the direction I need to go to learn, just as I do with my own sons. He is there when I bring a treasure I find and want him to see it even though He already knows all about it. He holds me when I fall and comforts me. He lets me stand behind Him when I am afraid. When I call in the night he comes running to my bedside and does not hide in the pages of a book. These are my responsibilities as an earthly father to my sons, how much more are they for You.
One-sided relationships are not relationships as far as I can tell. If I am to Yada Yahweh then I need Him to stoop just a little bit lower so that I can see Him on a daily basis. I may not deserve it, but then again I thought that was what this was all about, me receiving something out of His love that I do not deserve.
The Book of Ecclesiastes is absolutely true as far as I am concerned. This life is absolutely meaningless if you do not have God in it. There is no point in living.
Father, you have asked me to have a relationship with you and I want so very much to do so. But for me, for that to happen I must ask you to have a relationship with me. One I can see.
I will always love you but it gets very hard for me if I cannot see the One I love.
Your son,
Curtis
Edited by user Saturday, January 5, 2008 11:20:09 AM(UTC)
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