Thanks for replying to me Jeannie,
Yes, I was lucky enough to know Yada when this all began. He has been answering my questions since TWT LOL. He knows the love I have for him. I may have been at this for 4 more years than you, but I was so excited about my new discovery and this news, I spent a good portion of my time, informing others, and refuting the madness of Islamic minds. I think of it as preparation. For what? I don't know, yet, but I can tell you that I have heard every excuse and apology, religions can muster. It's to the point where I know the answer/excuse/lie before they post it. Knowledge is power-without question. I figure that there must be a reason for it. I find that my disdain for religious leaders is at an all time high. I made my rounds in my local area and addressed every Church leader that would entertain me. I wasn't liked by any of them. Then I realized that they are lost and my focus should be on their victims. I realize this is impossible w/o first exposing the church as the liars they are, so I am working on how to approach that situation, so that the message will be beneficial instead of hostile. I still think it is easier for a person to accept the truth about say, Christmas, if they have not been indoctrinated by religion. PPL simply get bent out of shape, regardless of how it is approached. I mean, how do you tell someone that they have been fed a bag of lies, in a nice way? LOL And not one church leader is willing to discuss the merit of their positions with me infront of their flock(which I would love), for some reason LOL, so I need to expose the flock to the lies that their teachers have told me. I just don't know how to go about it yet. I feel strongly about this because I was kept from knowing about my Father for over 30 years, and the reason for it, can be dropped squarely at the feet of religious leaders. I made the mistake of thinking that the Church represented Yahuweh, so when I viewed the Church as stupid, I errantly viewed God in the same way. I really feel that this is why MANY PPL are agnostic/atheist. When they learn that what they thought all along as being stupid, is viewed the same way by God, they will open up to His truth-I did, and I was the worst. If I can ever figure out how to relay this and draw more PPL to Him rather than repel them, I will do it. Until then, I will let my Father teach and guide me, as His student, until I am ready. You can't worry too much about the willingly blind ones, Jeannie. As sad as it is, wait til you get the one person who will respond appropriately. It makes it all worth while. I have turned many PPL onto YY, but recently, I got a phone call from a client of mine,(yes, I speak of Yahuweh at all times, regardless if it costs me $-and it has) and she was crying, saying how much her life has changed since our talks. I just can't decribe how awesome that feeling is. I even got a Muslim to flee the ignorant and immoral religion of Islam. Sure, I spoke with thousands and 1 is a small percentage, but for those who know the likelyhood of such a move, knows how remarkable it is. Here is what I have learned-It has nothing to do with me(or you). It is solely dependant on whether or not the person is willing. You can stamp Daniel 9 on their forehead, and it will do no good to most. One must be willing. As you know, it takes a considerable commitment, and most aren't willing. Keep learning about Yahuweh, and I assure you that one day you will indeed hear someone say "I'll read this and get back to you". Every past rejection becomes moot at that point. I get sooooo excited for PPL, as I know the journey is indescribable. Without question, it has been the highlight of my life.
It just came to me the feeling I have, and have had for years. It's like reading a really good book. When you are nearing the end, you might get mixed feelings like I do. Part of me wants to hurry up and get to the end to see what happens, and the other part is saying that you never want it to end because it is so enjoyable. I have been in a race to come to know Yahuweh and felt I could never get to the "end" of this complex storyline, but I just realized how fun it has been getting here. Excuse me while I have an epiphany LOL. Perhaps this is the beginning of me settling down and calming the fire that resides in me.